and so good friday ended. and i ended it with quite a light heart. until i woke up. it's just another pms period. and i guess. i just got myself into too much shit. i cant even find time for myself anymore. sigh. i just want to sleep my week away. oh wells.

sermon was amazingly short today. so yay. but i was just kinda irritated by the lights. i just love it when we get to sit on the floor. for some reason, it reminds me of mg chapel. in primary school that is. heh.

anyway, point being. when i go to church, i just get reminded of how terrible i am. but when i see you, i continue to do horrible things. i'm just conflicting myself in life, and i cant get out of it. i'm in so much torture, i hope you'll ever understand this. but seems like you never will. sigh.

WHY.

and you on the other hand did not do shit. you dont even deserve anything. your friends care, but you choose to be stubborn.

koreans aint the greatest in the world. stop being blinded.

if you wanna go to hell faster, please go on your own, and stop dragging others with you. thanks.

just because somethings have been taught in your world, doesnt mean it is what i stand strong and hold to. there's really something about you that i cannot accept. you and i have totally different beliefs. it's like you are reading a bible half different from mine.

please wake up, and see where you're headed.

you have been there and disappointed twice. dont go because of convenience and friends.

i'm spending time worrying about the people i love, and what they are actually really receiving.

at the end of the day, it's your choice. to go to church or not. even if you do attend service, whether you choose to listen or not. and if you really do listen, does it make any sense/does it make you want to change or not.

on the other hand, thinking about studying overseas gets me... excited. and scared at the same time. anyone that knows me well would know how i cannot take care of myself. if food isnt served in my face, i'm not gonna eat. if there's no water, i wont drink. but then again, it's about the experience. sian.