1.09am since i last heard your voice.
it's a night even longer than any other one.
my tears has been flowing since the time i left.
my eyes are swelling and in so much pain right now.
my heart is in so much pain that i wish i could take it out.
i hid in the toilet for an hour because my parents were still awake.


how i wish i could take us back in time
but it's gone too far now we can't rewind
please don't try to fake what you don't feel
i won't ask you to stay, i'd rather walk away
and i still wish you the best.
sigh.


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dear God,
i'm in so much pain right now and i wish you would hear me out and save me from the pain. i went against you once, and i'm trying to correct it now. so please dont forsake me. please tell me that i'm doing the right thing, and this is part of your plan. and i'm trusting You to help me get over it.
in Jesus' name i pray
Amen.