so finally, i am awake enough to spend some time with the toys on my bed. yes. just those on my bed. how much i miss spending time with my dearest one that has been here for me during the good and bad times. the one that spent time taking my tears, keeping warm and safe. <3

back to the point. i looked at the walnut and thought of you. i remember wanting it so bad. but i honestly have no where to hang it anywhere. it's a car decoration thing, you know, with the suction and what not. i have no car. so no point of getting it. but you made it to be a keychain and gave it to me. i dont want it to get dirty, so it's now on my bed with some other toys watching me sleep.

you had a reason that you wanted me to keep this, so that 20years down the road, i'll remember the idiot that did stupid things for me, and even if you died, i'll have something that would remind me of you. just so i will never forget you in my life. i'm telling you now, i never shelved you. never kept you aside. and never will i forget you. no matter what may come, you are still gonna remain in my memories.

and tonight, i'm just missing you a lot.