"dont say you love me. you dont even know me."

it's the line that would fit the both of us. we dont even know each other. we rushed things too fast. how are we entitled to say that we love each other? you dont know how i like to joke about a lot of things, and that's just me. you dont know that i have super bad memory, and will forget things easily. you dont know that i'm not the kind that is sensitive to issues. you dont know so many things about me, and i just dont explicitly tell you in the face that i hate it, and come up with an excuse to leave you for it. just like how i dont know if you're serious or not. i dont know if you're lying to me or not. i dont know when you're not exactly happy with something when there's another person around. i dont know what the sensitive topics are. i dont know why you've changed. i dont know why you cant keep to your word. i dont know why you are the way you are now.

it's like you're not someone i expected you to be. you're totally different. there are times that i feel like you're a stranger. but i've accepted the fact that that's just you, without expecting anything else. ohwells.

right from day1, i knew this was going to happen. since then, i saw this as a problem. so now i face the consequences on my own. serves myself right for not listening to the whole world (meaning God, and the people he has placed around in my life).

i'm just gonna move on in life, wishing you happiness and the best in whatever you choose to do. and i just hope that we could go back to what we were before. that's all.

thank you for all the times we had together.
thank you for fighting with me about arm power.
thank you for the random sushi meals in the middle of the day.
thank you for your comfort when i was sad.
thank you for the bottle of love.
thank you for the surprises.
thank you for kneeling down.
thank you for being nice back then.
thank you for finishing my part of CATS.
thank you for the little things that you do.
thank you for screwing certain things up for me.
thank you for taking time out of your life for me.
thank you for bothering to ask me out on 31 12 2010.
thank you for eating like a pig with me.
thank you for teaching me certain things.
thank you for the random movies.
thank you for laughing with me about stupid things.
thank you for being a friend that has always been there.
thank you for poking me once in a while to remind me about some things.
thank you for hugging me when i'm back at THE place.
thank you for your promises that can never be kept again.
thank you for giving me hope for something that will never happen.
thank you for not accepting me the way i am.
and the list goes on.