totally not understanding you anymore. seriously, you are different. you are not the person i knew. you have weird temper. you are petty about every single shit. you are calculative. you are not bothered about this. so why should i even bother about this, if you are not who i used to know?

i'm not gonna bother anymore. every single fucking time, you dont apologise, cos you fucking think it's my fault. have you ever thought that it takes two freaking hands to clap? apparently not, because i have to be the one that says sorry. and ask for forgiveness when i didnt even do anything wrong. greaaaaaat. and i've been doing that not because i feel that i'm totally in the wrong, but because you dont want to say it. fine.

if you really do love me, you'll remember it on the worst days. you'll stop threatening me with all your shit. and emotionally abusing me. yeah. you think i'm not abused. i cant even freaking be myself when i'm out. i feel like you are lightning mcqueen, and i'm mater. you're just embarrassed by the way i speak and all. you just want me to pretend to be someone i'm not.

dont give me your whole fucking bullshit about raising your damn fucking bar again, because you fucking didnt. the most basic thing you used to do was the send me home. now i walk to the bus stop alone. so yeah. shut up before you annoy me more. ohhh. and what did you do?! SCREW ANOTHER GIRL? God knows. stayed out with her? i'm not surprised. hugged her to sleep? nothing new. if that's the case, i can totally just go over to another guy's house and stay over. but no. i am not. because i'm not as desperate as you are.
just saying.

still gonna forgive you though i'm hurt over and over again. but whatever makes you happy.
you still dont know me well enough if you didnt read all of the posts.