i'm starting to get scared again. after what happened yesterday. it's just... not something i expected. and i'm afraid that one day, i'll be that person. suddenly, i cant seem to figure out who you really are, and i'm pulling myself back cos i dont know when it'll be my turn. you can promise me everything, to be patient, to be caring, to love me, to hate me, to disturb me, to whatever. but how am i ever gonna be sure of what you will really be in future? no one can be sure of the future.

suddenly, it's like i'm getting slapped by God left right and center. i need to be clear of what i'm doing. and it seems that i have to break someone's heart. or maybe two, three, four. who knows. someone definitely has to suffer.

expectations come before disappointment.
people change. and i guess it's fine when you change. i'll just accept it, cos that's you. i'm trying to change, for the better. so that you be happier. i'm sorry that you have expected so much more out of me. but i'm really trying damn hard to work this out.

A relationship that lasts is one with Christ in the center. Two people putting God first. Seeking Him in everyway possible, in order to be as good as a spouse as one can be. It's about trusting in one another and trusting in God's plan, that He will build your relationship into one that will last a lifetime.