it's like how you've cheated me once, and my trust in you will never be the same. there will always be something in me that reminds me of what you've done. you may not even notice, because it's the slightest thing you might have done, but to me, it might create the impact that i will never trust you again.

i'm pretty sure that every single one of you that is reading this cheated my feelings at least once. you might think that i dont remember things, but when it comes to hurting me, even all the way to 10years back, i can still remember what you did to me.

i'm losing faith in stuff. in you especially. and i mean stuff like. almost everything, including God. cant believe i just said that, but then again. i live a lot by sight/sound. faith is something so small, i keep forgetting. i feel like i'm going back to sec3. where i heard this line "i wont believe it until i see it". ahwells. i will always believe it until proven wrong.

"and when i've truly forgiven, that's when i've forgotten" someone just said that to me. how many times have you met this particular person, i still remember. how many times i got pissed, it's counting. how many times you've hurt me, i know it as well. but with that, it just lets me know how much i care. how i wanna just be there.

and many times, i dont mean what i say. or at least, i dont mean what you interpret it to be. i guess, you just dont know me well enough.