i know what you're like. and you know what i'm like too.
i know how much you love them, but it's not the same for me.
i dont know if you really understand what i'm trying to tell you or not.

i envy you.
i'm jealous.
i hope to be you.
i wish to have your family.
i cant do this at home with mine.

as much as i dont want anything to happen, i've been doing this for just too long. you really wont understand. the mask is fading away. why cant you just understand how everything else is more important? cant you just give in for once? you think i like it this way?

YOU JUST DONT UNDERSTAND.