i did the craziest thing in my entire life today. walk home from np. hahah. yeah. i once said i'll walk home from mg, and people, who know me well enough, will always say, by the time you get home, you need to get out of bed to go to school already lar. you know that kind of thing i always get when people comment at my speed. hahaha.

well, walking... it just brings me to realise many things. i mean. it was a crazy decision i made today, and i know that. everyone that i told said things like. are you mad? siao ah? too much time is it? nothing better to do ah? that kind of thing. but well, i have to tell you this. you try walking this distance, and really, you'll be thankful for a lot a lot of things. seriously, then you'll start thinking about how the people in the past lived. they only had... horses. well. that's before wheels were invented. then there were carts. but you see. poor animals. then inventions of vehicles came along. it was soooo good. i was really thankful on my way home. i thanked God for everything i have. and i am satisfied with my life as it is. ((((:

can you imagine life in the past?! no internet, no tv, no cars, no vehicles, NOTHING! wahhhh. i will rot and die. even now with internet, i'm rotting lar. i'm gonna be thankful and stop complaining. goshhhh. lipin, your life is good man. dont bother about what others say. your life's good as it is. (:

okay. that was like. side track. i'm thankful for everything lar. like. for proper legs that can actually get me home with my feet. okay. just that the forming blisters at my heels are really painful that i can hardly walk. damn sad. and i really thank God for the person that created roads. without roads, cars dont really go nicely, plus. i'm living in the city. THANK GOODNESS! imagine you're one of those kids living up in the mountain areas. you have to get up how many hours earlier just to climb that mountain to go to school. it's so sad. therefore, i will try as much as possible not to complain about how long the bus takes to come, how i hate the squeezing, have no seats and what not, because there are people out there suffering more than i am.

i'm not gonna complain about walking short distances, i'm not gonna complain how slow the bus driver drives, i'm not gonna complain about everything, as much as possible. because my life is already better than the poor kids out there. everytime i felt like giving up, i just thought about how kids have to climb mountains just to go to school, and i managed to complete my journey home on two feet. besides, i know i wasnt walking alone. i know there will always be someone taking every single step with me. as much as my legs and back were aching, feet being painful, and the weather being so hot, someone would be there to understand me. such a happy thing to know. probably my first time i felt that Jesus was walking next to me, listening to my complains about... the weather, and like. within the next minute, the clouds would cover the sun, and the wind blows. super cool man. (((:

and maybe like what val says. i dont know what im doing in fsv. i wanna be a social worker. i wanna be a missionary. i guess i really feel too much for the kids and stuff in kenya, in yunnan, in cambodia and what not. oh wells. I KNOW I AM IN FSV FOR A REASON! i am going to start filming these things that people dont get to see, feel, hear and understand. i want the world to appreciate what they already have, and stop complaining. i remember my other reason for being in fsv. i hope i can complete that. but i will have to first find a group of people to do that with me. (:

so... hm. i guess i will disappear from this earth for a week? hide myself in the room. and do some straightening of thoughts. and i guess i'll do that before _ comes back. and after september break. so maybe the week after september holidays? i'll see when again.

to get to you, i'd walk a thousand miles.