HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELODYCHENG&MRSCHOO(considering the fact that we just found out today)!

i'm reminded of that.
only now, i realise that i havent gotten over it.
i lived in denial, and i just slept my problems away.
this is called. running away from reality, and now it's back.

&laycirbdy.
my heart feels so broken.

maybe i'll just put up with all these crap, and sit through os with it.
or else, i find someone to rant to and cry all my troubles out asap.

i'm so tired.
put me down.
and i rest forever.
i'm better off dead.

O LEVELS GETS ON MY NERVES SO BADLY.
maybe the headlines would say.
"16year old studied too hard for os, and fainted"
or
"studying without resting murdered someone on the road"

i suddenly wished that i was knocked down in sec1. why did the car break in front of us? why didnt it just bang me down? if i were to just die then, my life wouldnt be so bad, and i wont see such crap in my life. agrhh.