HAPPY MOONCAKE FESTIVAL!
i havent seen the moon yet.
neither have i played with lanterns nor candles.
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME.
and that's all because of one stupid arguement.
and I HATE IT. cos YOU are such a coward!

I AM SERIOUS ABOUT GOING TO HONGKONG ON MY OWN.
i wouldnt get lost. and i will survive. I DONT CARE.
it was you that started not to care first.
i'll just return what i got from you.

my english, chinese and cantonese is enough for me to communicate.
i can stay at the police station, bathe in public toilets and go shopping.
i will survive without you around, it's not like you'll do anything, right?
even if you go, you'll still wait for me to do everything, so there's no point.
WORSE COME TO WORSE. I WILL FIND SOMEONE TO GO WITH ME.
i just simply HATE the sight of YOU! no words can describe that.

YOU ARE NOT A KING.
i am not your servant.
i do not owe you a living.
but, instead, you owe me one.
if it aint for you, i wouldnt be here.
the world would be a better place.
because less people would have to face me.
teachers wouldnt vomit blood teaching me.
ears would have peace without me talking.
you wouldnt hear me complaining ever before.
most importantly, THE WORLD WOULD GO ON.

so, can you tell me what's the point of me being in this world?
dont tell me that every single one of us have a purpose in life.

i wish, tomorrow, i will just get knocked down by a car, and die.
i'm just too sick and tired of facing you, you, you and you again.
i've no idea how to put on this stupid act, pretending i'm fine.
i dont plan to put on this mask of mine again, but i dont have a choice.
but i know, ONE DAY. it will fade off. and you will see the true me.
somethings, you'll never understand.

but i thank you for the 4 of you.
you understand.
you lent me your ear.
i dont have to spell everything out around you.