i get the point that if i keep escaping, i'll never grow up. and i've heard it twice in 4days. it's just from different ways/people.

i have never gotten over it. it's just that i've been escaping reality. and that's why the pain is still hear when i see/hear about this. it's been seconds/minutes/hours/days/weeks/months/years, and i know all these times, i've just ran away from it.

i still have NO IDEA how to face it. when to face it. why to face it. where to start with.
i seem to be drifting from all of you, and i dont see how we can communicate anymore.
on the other hand, SURVIVOR'S LAW is good. i just finished rewatching it. yes. i know. waste time right. but it's better than thinking about things i dont want to think about. blahhh.

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