I DONT WANT TO CRY, BUT TEARS JUST FLOW. ):
我不想哭，但眼泪不断流出来.
我真的不想被这件事被困.
不要再在我前面提醒这件事, okay?

LP, THIS IS NOT GETTING YOU ANYWHERE. so there's no point. just.
F.O.C.U.S.

dont tell me all these shit like. you dont think about it and what not. cos seriously, when i'm alone, it's just coming in like that.

even if i dont think about it, yes. that's what happened. i did that for like. a few months. but it still haunts. ):

nightmares aint good. i'm only sleeping for like. 30min (max) before i get up again. and make sure i dont get nightmares, before going back to bed. it's tiring okay. AGRH.

I NEED TO POUR IT OUT TO A FEW PEOPLE SOON! gah.