that is the past we can never go back.
and i cant forget it.
i cry for you.
i need/want a hug from you.

i can throw away everything, or do anything to forget
BUT THE MEMORIES STAY. they haunt.
THEY ARE SCARY. ):

it wont be surprising that i'll break down one day.
that day will come soon. can i just stay strong till holidays?
NGLIPIN, BARE WITH IT! YOU CAN DO IT! it's just a week.

&are we friends or enemies or strangers?
i once knew the answer.
but not anymore. why?

you think i dont know what's going on. you think you know everything. you think i dont know what you're hiding. you think i dont know what will happen. you think i am happy. you ASSUME nothing's happening. since you like it that way, then BE THAT WAY. dont talk about it in front of me, cos I SERIOUSLY DONT WANT TO KNOW. i think you know who/what i'm talking about. yes, it's you.

i'm getting irritated by your rubbish. i dont know when i'm going to blow at you. soon i will. i've lost my patience. no matter what you say. I DONT CARE ANYMORE! i dont want to. can you stop giving me such rubbish. i will not accept it.

you tell me i am lack of self confidence. YOU THINK I DONT KNOW? you tell me about everything else, but NEVER spared a thought about what i'm going through. you tell me i need to work hard. you tell me everything else, but never ever asked how i was feeling. you dont understand what i am going through.

I HATE MY LIFE. i hate myself. I HATE BEING SEC4! why do we have to go through all these shit?! get ourselves going crazy because of this thing called O LEVELS. i hate it. i am going mad. listening to all your nonsense, that i dont want/need to know.

PLEASE SEND ME FOR COUNSELLING.