the mask is fading.
having it on isnt that easy.
i've had it on for too long; i've lost myself.
one day, you'll not see the lipin you know.

everything's fading away.
i will soon be what i was before.
the black pit is just there, and i'll stupidly step in.

i am going mad. STUPID TRIP. screw it.
the day will come, SOON. i'm losing it.
i dread going to school.
i dread facing all of you.
i hate studying.
most importantly, I HATE YOU!

WHY?
DESSERTS!

i dont wanna go to school anymore. SCREW THE TESTS.
SCREW YOU. i hate tests. whoever's oh so brilliant idea, GO AND DIE LAR!
every week test. every week graded assignment. every week quiz.

I WILL JUST FAIL EVERYTHING.
i give up. what's the point of studying?
smart or not, life goes on. you'll still die one day.
WHY BOTHER?!

you never cared. you never did. all you know is. YOU, YOURSELF, AND YOU. WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM? just think about people around you. it's that simple! yet you cant do it. WHY? you just want it YOUR way. and only YOUR way. WHY? self fish pig. what's wrong with other people's work?! yours aint perfect. it aint that good. so WHY yours? WHY. if you want it that way, FINE. have it YOUR way. then DONT COMPLAIN. stop telling me all these rubbish. i've had enough. REALLY. the end. i've been too nice to tolerate such rubbish.
IHOPEYOUREADIT.

i need to talk. i need to rant. i need YOUR help. i need to _. i need a _. i need someone _.
will you make it possible?
i wish i could just spit everything out.

I MISS YOU A LOT! )):