i've seen the change in our relationship.
from the beginning of the year, it was strangers.
and now? for the better or for the worse? i dont know.
it's up to you to decide. the ups and downs and what not. sigh.

reading through all my past messages that i never deleted, cos i was lazy, really reminds me of everything. the really good times and the bad times. i have messages that date back to mid june? hahaa. yeah. if only my other phone didnt drop into the water, i would have more msges to read. sigh.

for some reason, i really want to see the change. i dont know. like. the change in all our friendships. from the first day of school, the first day in 3S. sigh. only if we could maintain it. i've lost trust in every other person in class. i dont know. i've drifted away. and will not be coming back.

i dont feel like saying anymore things to anyone. but i'll not to be quiet for more than 7min. i'll just talk rubbish, so that no one will know what's happening. i've hidden well. well enough for me to live. for this long, so why give up? just continue.

probably that one or two of you will be able to see through all these, but i highly doubt so. you need to know what goes on everyday before being able to see through. just one thing to make me go mad. you'll never know what is that one thing.

i've had enough of all these shit you've given me. i'll make myself fall sick. with highhhhh fever so that i dont have to go with all of you. i've really gotten ENOUGH. dont expect me to go to that place with respect FOR YOU. cos i've already made known RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING that IT'LL BE MY DAY. so stop going to such shit places where i see such shit things. ENOUGH. i rather spend my birthday alone at home than with a bunch of suckers. i'm PERFECTLY fine all alone.

& they will never be the same.
i'm losing faith in everything. ):
EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT.
you will only see one side of lipin from now on.