i have no confidence to pass amath.
i have no confidence for chinese.
i have no confidence to pass orals.
definately no confidence in chem.
i am going to fail my history.
i have no confidence to pass CA4.
i have no confidence to pass EOYs.
i have no confidence in anything.
not even the slightest thing. like. 2^2.
basically, I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE IN MYSELF.

WHY IS IT ALWAYS THE DAY BEFORE HISTORY TEST THAT WE GET ALL THESE STUPID NONSENSE? remember the last time as well?

i am seriously going to fail. WHYYYYY?

i'm ultra pissed with myself. i really cant believe i was actually arguing that EATING IS A WASTE OF TIME. i mean. i live with this line not to go against my stomach. and here i am arguing about EATING IS A WASTE OF TIME?! what the heck. NG LI PIN, WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE THINKING?!

confused. :/
compass please.
i need one to guide me.
to tell me which direction.
to tell me where i'm heading.

someone.
please tell me.
tell me how to pass.
tell me what i'm doing.
tell me that i did something right.

i'm pissed for having such mood swings.
why cant it just be normal.
WHY?

ULTRA PISSED OFF.

from monday onwards, i shall go into hiding. so that nobody finds me.
so that i can do work, and get something done.
at least. even if i'm in class, i cannot be sleeping or talking.
I NEED TO STUDY!
SS is coming. so is geog and history.







SIGH.
I.

JUST.
DIE.

what you say might make sense. they might be right to me. they might have a lot of logic.
but there's something else to take note of. whether or not i'm going to apply it.
sometimes it isnt about the scolding. it isnt because of anyt- hing, but MYSELF.
i feel so. 自私. that is the word. I dont know. maybe its just me. ):