PLEASE APPEAR! )):
i'll forgo the joke for that to happen.

anyway, i gladly got up at 11.30 today when i was supposed to meet my aunty at the bus stop in half an hour. like. my sister takes so long in the toilet doing dont know what. blahhh. so while she's doing dont know what, i watched revolving doors of vengence. NICEEEEE! ((((: i like. heh. that actually brought me away from thinking about anything. so now i finally found the way to stop thinking. and away from the world. WATCH TV! but it has to have something meaningful. plus dont add on to what i'm dying with. heh. yeah. and it ended at 11.56? hahah. and my sister was happily hunting for food. blah. so we got to the bus stop erm. at 12.10? hahah. yeah.

slacked during cip. yeah. then cheryl came to help. which made it even slacker. hahahah. cheryl ong, remember i was telling my aunty that if she gets bonus (which is next year), i'm going to ask for vcd? and you said that i have to lend you. but may i ask how since you are so set on what you want to do. i can possibly bring the vcd to hell or something. therefore, you can jump. now you see there are so many other reasons man. yeah. so my sister and i actually found 300 books, with the help of cheryl. hahah. so cool. in like. one and a half hours. :D therefore we slacked. and slacked. and slacked. until we kana asked to do shelving. blahhhhh. and we had to carry books for uncle zul AGAIN. and that mad guy thinks that my sister is cheryl. -.-'''' he was like. same girl what. same. same... i tell you the same lar. hahahah. damn funny. oh wells. then after cip, my sister and i went to pizza hut with my aunty. heh. then we pigged like pigs. ahahahah. cos we didnt eat anything for the whole day until 4? yeah. and then we started gossiping about librarians. heh. cant stand that chinese lady. always black face one. but besides her, i swear, any other librarians in that library are insane!

then popular. blah blah. my sister and i spent like. an hour choosing green paint. hahah. like. NO. its not this. and we were arguing infront of the paints for so long. hahahah. yeah. i came home to sleep. until 8.10? cheryl woke me up. yeah. then i went for dinner. and I WANT A REPLY! ))): why no reply? why, oh why. ))): i was so happy that the sky became dark today. i was happy that it was 9.30. i was waiting for tiffany to tell me something. i was waiting and waiting. now, this is really annoying. cos i dont want to wait anymore. ): i am still waiting. still waiting. really. i wouldnt mind to stay up the whole night just waiting. but i'm really tired. and i am falling sick. and that's for sure. getting up in the middle of the night, getting nice nice dreams, getting terrible nightmares. EVERYTHING. but i know it will all end soon. if you ask why, i dont know. just.

trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.

my paths are becoming straight. and it will. (: just one word, trust. i believe it will happen. just a matter of time. i dont know why i can still remember that since P4? yeah. it made an impact since someone's death. from proverbs (sp?)?? something like that lar. anyway, IT IS STRAIGHTENING. :D

For I am the Lord your God
who takes hold of your right hand and says to you
Do not fear
I will help you.
Isaiah 41:13

and i found this on some random blog. yeah. i've got help. ((: actually we all got help. just how we get it. and whether or not its the hard or the soft way. you get it, right?

i TRUST that they will appear and i KNOW that they are help.